Gist
of Cold
Not Affected or showing emotion, cold-blooded, emotionless, unaffected,
unemotional, unmoved, marked by the lack of the warmth of the normal emotion, friendliness, or compassion,
not moved to enthusiasm, Not colored or affected by personal feeling or bias.Question is… Am I really Cold?
I hide behind The COLD Mask. I like to show people that I don't care about anything but money
and myself, and that people doesn't concern me but that is because I am afraid that when I love someone or get
close to them, I might loose them in the end because loosing is my worst nightmare, so I always tend to keep
a distance between me and the others because this way you think I am safe. And it has been proven. I am UNCOLD to selected people. People that are close to me, people that love dearly. For the past 2 years
that I had been cold to new invitations, I think it is deeply consuming. That’s scary…I won’t be able to
contain myself anymore.
In
the darkness of the shadows, Lies my soul, Looking inside me, There is only a hole, When the night falls, My pain rise again,
Can't help it but give in, Even death can't release me, I'm already dead, Can't find a way to stop this voices in my head,
Waiting between thousands of lives for someone can hear my within voice screaming, I'm not just a kid, Can't find myself,
Lost in my thoughts, Confusion will end, Whatever it costs, Begging my eyes not to be cryin', While writin' my last line,
Waiting for something to make me stop, Just before i let the pen drop, Here she comes looking at me, Holding my hands to make
me see, My hidden spirit, It seemed so true, Life is so beautiful if we only knew I'm tired of being tired, I'm tired of
being me, Is it ok to be alone? Is it ok to feel lonely? Should i listen to what she is saying? Should my soul see the light?
I don't know what to do, Is there a difference between wrong and right? Waking from my dreams, Letting things go, is easier
than it seems, Still can't do it though, Listen to this voices, What? Can't you hear? They had no choices, they surrounded
to fear, Looking for answers, But they aren't here, Am I in the wrong place? Or did they disappear? Behind these tears,
Beneath this pain, A child who fears, Fighting in vain, Too many times she tried, Even blood she cried, She is dead inside,
Still no one hears, No matter how far she goes, How loud she screams, All eyes are closed, They're dead it seems, May be death
found to them a way, May be who knows, Or may be they didn't find a reason to stay, No one cares I supposed...
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